Change.

My heart is on fire yet cold.
I am hugely affected but i don't wanna be bothered.
Tears used to flow, it just turned into hatred now.
Why should i be affected, why should i care?

You asked for forgiveness, and another, and another.
I wait longer, and longer, and longer.
But you never changed.

我很想你

当和你快乐的在一起的那段美好时光。
现在我们以已往是有大大的差异，
美好时光也已变成没好时光。

亲爱的你，
一定感觉非常快活，应为也只有我痛苦，你才会觉得痛快。
我爱死你了， 但我也看得见自己的未来会应爱你而死。是好是坏由不得我决定。命运公公老是爱拿我来开玩笑，不过老天爷也不会对我们人类太缠任，你说是吗？
真想回到从前， 回到那段轰轰烈烈的爱，回到我脑海中的美满恋情。
为何你不再给我那种飘飘得感觉，为何你不再会为我紧张。是我们的角色对换了吗，还是我在你心目中的意义已不纯在了。

从没感到一点点的疑撼，只是渴望的比这一切都多了许多。

我爱你。
请你也爱我吧。

You just said 'No, thank you'

I feel hopeless this time.
Not getting a grip of myself.

Hanging by the moment, guess that is what the is feeling now.
Am i confused or is it you?
I couldn't decipher your actions and the many things you didn't do to make me stay. I wasn't the type who sit and wait, so why am i like that so suddenly?

I've lost the many many things that you weren't happy with me before.
This time around, are we still the same?
Do we still love with the same capacity of passion?
Do the love we both share still mean anything to you?

Should i keep giving in?
What is right and what is wrong?

Look at me baby, so full of confusions.
I've always thought love makes things simpler but i know i am wrong now.
This love makes me feel otherwise now.

What is happening to you baby?
Have you made up your mind on me in your heart?
Are you not happy together with me?
Is that anything that i have done wrong?
How can i make things better for you baby?

Every time i ask you if you are alright, your reply to me will always be, ' baby, I'm okay.'
To me, that alone is not sufficient to ease my worries. Although i certainly want you to be okay, that is for sure.

I don't enjoy being hung by the moment.
Knowing where am standing is of a great importance to me.
I stopped hoping for this or that, i know i wouldn't be able take the blow.

Baby, tell me i am wrong. Talk to me.

FRESH and HAPPY!

Coz' of the fact that my laptop is now fresh and new with it being reformatted. I just reinstalled all the anti-virus softwares and most of the softwares required.

I'll be back with pictures tomorrow.
Satisfaction guaranteed!

SO excited! *skips*

Experimental SUSHI!

Why am i not surprised that we didnt wake up in the early morning to go grocery shopping? Our meeting time had been dragged till about 12.30pm, such is the spirits of two person who have been slacking their entire holidays away.

Oh well, all is good. We successfully made some delicious sushi, despite burning a pot. We didnt burn it, we burnt it. As usual, the mom(not mine!) keeps yakking away. Of how we should do this and that, that and this. Yada yada, you get the drift. I am sorry for ruin the pot but knowing she is the way she is, i kind of don't feel sorry anymore.

Somebody please tell me i am mean.
Anyway, lesson learnt. Most people don't get along with the mom of their boyfriends or mother-in-laws, i don't wanna be special in this case.

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I got a text from Frog that one of the class that we would be having this is cancelled. Only am glad that it is Design in Context of all the subject. For this coming semester, i am not in for skipping class. Some things never change, i still hate classes by Mo-peng.

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I have a crush on someone all over again. <3

What lack of sleep can do to you

Normally it makes me feel grouchy. It is going to be different today.

There is this weird aftertaste in my mouth now after eating sardine straight from the can, much influenced by Kittylene.

Now she is telling me that Grohl loves her because of her cat eyes. Getting high on showing me pictures of Grohl and her, his gig and exchanging recipes.

I figured i am rather old at heart. Tsk.
Why am i gossiping my night away and much more than that, i am exchanging recipes with Kittylene! i mean look at her, you will never believe she can cook. Sad to say, she knows more than me. *blush*

Kittylene just came up with an self-introduction for herself, haha :
"i am kittylene. i wanted to be cupcake but was denied. i am 18, insecure and short. i love sushi, strawberry lipsmackers and i'm an oxymoron."

She is trying to force me to blog about how much i love her
(prove!)
Âñgëå-sugar™: hmmm says:
i am trying to blog now
`Âñgëå-sugar™: hmmm says:
but nothing is in my head
The possibility of fixed stars. says:
hahaha talk abt how u love kittylene
The possibility of fixed stars. says:
hahahahhaa

Kittylene is at the moment entertaining herself with pictures of girls online with huge boobies. I have no idea what else to say about her, so this topic about her is over. =p

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Going for grocery shopping with Earl in the early morning. We are going to TRY to make sushi. My idea actually, i am craving for sushi so badly so i figured why not let us try making it on our own.

Even if it turns out like crap, i will still be loved very much.
It's amazing how love works isn't it?
*big wide grin*

Holiday is only getting better, now i dont want it to end.
All the fuckwits in school. So fucking full of shit.

The seductions of slumberland is ringing in my head now, i have to go get it,
Excuse me.